I have just finished this small painting (11 by 20 inches), in that it is watercolor and gouache it moved along pretty nicely.
The theme of Judas is one I want to explore. On Good Friday I did a study of the Deposition, I want to develop that image. Before I leave this earth I want to have painted at least one Deposition, all of my favorite painters have painted the scene,and I want to add my feeble version to that visual conversation. My thought is to add Judas to the scene, perhaps replacing the fair and lovely Evangelist John (perhaps not). The Theotokis will still be present, a mother’s love would never allow her to leave the side of her child; but adding Judas is my attempt to play upon the theme of Redemption. I am not speaking exclusively of Christian redemption but of redemption as understood by a humanist. “Everyman” as a wretch needing succor.
In fact I have painted my Judas not heroically as is my tendency but as “Everyman”; in many ways it is a self portrait.
I’m going to return to my oil paintings this evening, I have three going in various stages of completion. Judas will be on my mind, his frail humanity, his failures and his weaknesses. All attributes I understand and can relate to. I want to redeem this man, so hated that it is difficult to even bring him up (particularly amongst the traditionally faithful).
But I want to, as a boy I would secretly weep for him during the Passion service.
I still feel for him.