Tomorrow we have an added critique , which should be a positive experience in that it will be a group critique. I hustled about in good company today as my sister Pamela spent the day at the studio.
Pretty much what I accomplished today was this merfellow.
Will need to see how he is recieved; he delights me quite a bit.
Packing up for the day,pooped and bleary eyed; I am first on the firing line tomorrow ,bright and early at 9am.
Not much to say, frankly I’m just pooped; long hours , but thrilling.
Heading back to my room after a quick dinner . Will begin anew tomorrow but here are details of what I worked on today :
Will see how it looks in the am…
Good night,
Lg
Happy news, one of my favorite paintings Genesis (one that is quite finished, if I may be a bit snarky) was accepted in the upcoming 2015 California Open Exhibition at the Tag Gallery in Santa Monica. Acceptance in this show is very validating to me because of the artist who juried it. Jim Morphesis is a painter I admire a great deal: from his subject matter ( martyrdom , crucifixions , the torments and ecstasy of the flesh),to how he handles paint . So for Morphesis to choose 56 works out of 1,625 submissions and for Genesis to be part of that lucky lot makes me very happy indeed.
Sadly it opens August 12th and I will still be here in Philadelphia- David will have to be my proxy.
I’m so thrilled .
I had my second critique of this program at PAFA with Stuart Shils, a fine artist and an affable fellow . He offered earnest advice and once again I was told in this program there aren’t many folks making this sort of work . Now that may be a good thing or it could mean my work isn’t very good . I will wait and see, until I know for sure I will carry on.
One salient point he repeatedly made and one that echoes my very initial critique with Neysa Grassi, was to not overwork the surface. Both Grassi and Shils insisted Goblin Market was finished ( when Grassi declared it essentially finished, it was still pretty much a drawing, a nice drawing but not a painting in my limited concept of what makes a painting ).
That’s flattering , but it isn’t finished.
How does one sit with work when it is still evolving . I’m not trying to be priggish and insist upon a lacquer finish ( although I do admire that approach quite frequently ) , but I do see much further development with this painting.
Shils parting words were: ” don’t mess it up “.
Yikes!
My way of dealing with that warning was to work on another piece. Saturday is my drawing class with blessedly tangible means to an end. Monday I will face my demons , or in this case goblins , and begin anew. Contrary to advice I came here for, I need to be true to how I see this painting . If I “mess” it up, there is this photograph in it’s one moment of glory.
In my second week I am making decent progress and the encouragement and camaraderie of the faculty and comrades has been very helpful. But as the day sinks into dusk and you have been in the studio since the rise of Apollo , one becomes weary.
I’ve been working on the larger canvas today , I believe it is eight by five feet. It literally has been a daub at a time but I feel at last the painting is beginning to reveal itself. I think I’m naming it Orpheus’ Lament.
I will be back at again bright and early , but for now dinner, and if I am particularly ambitious , laundry.
What a fast and exciting life I lead…
Anyone who knows me, our home or my work can sense a Catholic ( upper and lower case) influence . But although raised Roman Catholic I have not attended mass in well over twenty years, aside from a few weddings.
I have been an on again- off again Episcopalian , but sometimes finding the churches a bit pretentious – who is more High Church than thou sort of silliness . Eastern faiths delight but mystify in an unhelpful way. So it has been the faith of my youth that has been how I identify when I identify as anything aside from a humanist . But with the Church’s mean spiritedness I have hesitated to attend ; until this new saint of a Pope.
And an unlikely evangelist at the front door of St John the Evangelist Catholic Church here in town on 13th.
Last week my sister Kat and I were wandering about and we stumbled upon this lovely ,yet unremarkable for a city so rich in churches, Gothic Revival church. What made it remarkable was the little woman greeting visitors at the front door . So sweet and so welcoming . I believe she is Phillipina and aptly named, for Philadelphia anyway , Liberty. She invited us to mass but we declined but I promised her I would attend soon.
I made good on my promise and the church was as joyous as Liberty. The placard on the front door asserts that it is an inclusive place and from looking about from my pew I would agree with that. The church offers two masses in Mandarin, has a strong Asian American presence as well as an African American presence ( hence the music being so much better ). Young folks , old folks , babies and homeless people, all crammed in. The church is run by Capuchin Friars and it was delightful to hear the priest railing against capitalism and praising the Holy Father’s position on the environment . With his simple linen vestments the priest was a delightful opposition to High Church puffery; let the pretty architecture attend to that need.
It seemed fitting the church would be dedicated to John the Blessed, the Evangelist. I turn to him in my own work and I guess other gay artists have in the past as well. Most famously Leonardo, who painted him with such physical beauty that nincompoops have insisted it is the Magdalene and not John. So silly, this inability to imagine same sex bonding, chaste or not.
The other day I snapped this detail at the Academy of Benjamin West’ massive depiction of the Ecce Homo presented before Pilate. As you can see he is quite a looker.
Will I return to the Church when I return to LA? probably not. To be shallow, most are mid century monstrosities and the pretty ones offer mostly masses in Spanish. But for now , for the next six weeks , I will attend. Let me know if you want me to light a candle for you.
Pax vobiscum
The last week here at PAFA has been thrilling, yesterday I had a six hour Intermediate Drawing course with Roger Chavez- I look forward to five more classes; I’ve had two critiques thus far, one gallerist, Alex Baker, calling my work “singular” in that there aren’t many folks making such whimsical and fantastical paintings , he was speaking of Goblin Market. I think that is a bit of a stretch but I take it as a compliment.
But amidst the highs I have been in a bit of a despairing state. The room I had rented from Airbnb has turned out to be quite grim, it reeked of cat and cooking grease and was off a dicey block. Philadelphia , like many cities varies from block to block , and sadly this was just two off where I would feel comfortable. I tried to rectify the situation by furtively crashing at the studio here at the Academy- a bit like Chinese Water Torture, the lights never extinguish and the janitors seem to revel in loud crashing noises. I’ve even crashed at my sister’s place , where I did enjoy a proper sleep . But the despair became increasingly alarming , my focus was upon where would I place my head each evening , the focus off of my work. It is stunning how basic and existential sleep really is when it seems so untenable; I sympathize with homeless folks and new mothers.
But last evening David secured me a new room off Rittenhouse Square, which is probably the loveliest neighborhood in the city. More extravagant than I would have allowed myself but I renounce my stoicism for a clean and charming room . As usual, tremendous gratitude to my husband.
The old neighborhood I was staying at was in many ways beautiful, some blocks offering delights such as these pretty Queen Anne houses.
But that wasn’t my building …
Yesterday class was held in the Still Life Room, I love the fact that the school HAS a room devoted to still life painting. It looked like a heavenly thrift shop.
So I check in to my new room today, much gratitude . I may attend an artist’s lecture, and later see my sister. After a sound rest in my new digs I can face what this program has to offer anew.
Again , thank you darling David. Apparently there is a new car waiting in our carport for me when I return to Los Angeles ( it seems he purchased an orange electric model for himself). I’m very lucky, must light candles at church this morning.
Tomorrow is my first critique, my studio progress thus far:
Blocking in Goblin Market and this untitled more expressive work. Both quite large, the second about 8 feet high, both in rough stages.
Pardon the weird shadow, it is an open ceiling space .
So that’s it, wish me luck!
Day three here at PAFA and I am delighted how at peace I feel in “my” studio. Four clean white walls, ready to accommodate whatever I throw at them . I am working large , something I have had to curtail back in LA as my studio space was becoming increasingly more cramped with my work, my books , my supplies; it is incredibly liberating to not have my familiar “support”, be it my resource files, art books etc. It is now about my expression not another’s . I have always struggled with the greatness of past artists , comparing myself unfavorably. I feel freer of that.
My progress thus far is drawing out The Goblin Market , sadly it isn’t photographing well, I need to improve the rather paltry lighting . But so far it looks like this:
In between studio hours I wander about , the following are some shots I have taken around center city Philadelphia.
I arrived earlier than I would have thought and was welcomed by the happy smile of my dear sister Kat . We spent much of the day setting up my studio,gathering supplies and the furnishings that would not have flown well , but really just catching up and recognizing how much I miss her.
We tacked up the canvas I’m to work on tomorrow and she proved to be an admirable studio assistant.
Walking about town in the midst of much gay pride festivity , I was struck by what a pretty city Philadelphia is and the richness its history provides.
After what seemed an endless day of walking about, we were happy for well earned dinner and drinkies. Tomorrow I begin anew …
Boondocks Babylon 